I've come so far but SO far to go....

I'm in a grumpy, bad mood today. I shouldn't be. Today was my weigh in day. I lost 1.5 pounds, so my total is up to 54.5 pounds. Today is also exactly 14 months since I started this. I'm doing well. I know that. But I'm still bummed.

I have about 70 more pounds to lose. I'm aiming for 1.5 pounds a week, which means it will take close to a year before I get to my goal weight. It just seems SO LONG. Week in, week out, weighing in, counting calories.

It just seems so daunting. Well, that's not true. I don't doubt that I can do it. Just such a long road. And I know if this is going to work, it needs to be a lifestyle change. Maybe that's the part I'm having a tough time grasping.

Why can't I concentrate on how far I've come, rather than on how far I have to go??

Full disclosure...revealing my weight!

So I've hit a big milestone. As of yesterday, 50 pounds lost since June 2010. But I have a few more big milestones coming up, and they really have to do with the actual number that I weigh. And I want to be able to fully celebrate them, so it's time to talk about how much I weigh.

My weight yesterday was 238. So yes, for those of you quick with math, that means I started at 288. 288. SO close to 300. It's really sad that I let myself get that way. I mean, I didn't even get that high while pregnant with Jenna....close, but not that high.

So 50 pounds is obviously big. But the bigger milestone comes when I get below 232. You see, I had lost weight before, after Jenna was born. And 232 was the lowest I got then. So that's a BIG goal for me right now, to get under 232.

Then the next big goal will be under 223. That means I will be over halfway there.

And the last big goal, before my final goal of 165, will be under 200. I haven't been under 200 since before we got married, almost 11 years ago. That will be something.

So 165 is my final goal weight. Still sounds like a lot, especially for someone who is just 5'4", but I've always carried my weight well. I weigh a lot more than I look, and I know I can be fit and healthy at around 165. Who knows, that final goal may change some, but it's my goal for now.

There you have it. Starting weight, 288. Current weight, 238. Still 73 pounds to go. But doing well so far!