Week 14 weigh in

Slow but steady. Lost 1 pound this week for a total of 31.8 pounds so far. I'm kind of surprised it wasn't more, but a loss is a loss. And I keep reminding myself that I need to concentrate on the positive changes I'm making, not just the number on the scale.

Slow and steady.

Non scale victories

I'm trying to put less emphasis on what the scale says and instead, concentrate on the "non scale victories." The stuff that has nothing to do with numbers and still makes me proud and happy! So here's some that I have noticed so far:

My clothes are definitely looser. I had to buy some smaller shorts. When I'm at work, I can tell my scrubs are actually getting looser. I'm not ready to go down a size in those yet but they are definitely bigger.

My engagement ring ALMOST fits again. With all the weight I've gained since I was married, I never got my engagement or wedding ring resized because I didn't want to admit I needed to! My wedding ring doesn't ever come off so it's worn a semipermanent groove on my finger, but I take my engagement ring off so I haven't been able to get it back on.

I went to the store the other day, and instead of thinking what junk I could get to eat, I thought about if they had some Sobe Lifewater 0. I don't know why but I've gotten hooked on that stuff!

But the best non scale victory this week? After getting out of the shower, the towel actually fit around me. Sounds silly but that made me SO happy.

Week 13 weigh in: Goal #1, lose 30 pounds. Check!

I hit the 30 pound mark! Lost 2.6 pounds this week for 30.8 total.

This week continued to be tough for me, but the during the latter part of the week, I felt like I was getting back on track. I still didn't exercise as much as I should, but my eating was MUCH better. We even went out for dinner Friday night, and I ordered a healthy entree (cajun lime tilapia) and no dessert...which was tough because everyone else got dessert!

And last night, even though I didn't get off work until 30 minutes late, I still stayed and walked 2 laps on the skywalk, just so I could check off my daily goals for Saturday.

Oh, and I had to buy some new shorts, because my old ones were just getting too big. And the new ones, one size smaller, are still a little loose!

So although I'm very happy I've lost 30 pounds, I'm still trying to concentrate on all the other positive changes I'm making. Because that's what will get me through when the scale doesn't move.

But, this morning I will be going to Barnes and Noble to get my first reward. Yay for mindless, cheesy, fun books!

Where did my motivation go?

Ugh. These have been a few tough days. I have not had my usual motivation to stay on my healthy course. Don't know why it's been so rough to eat well and exercise, but it definitely has. I haven't exercised at all today (it's after 8pm), and I also skipped exercising on Saturday. I ate better today than I did over the weekend, but I haven't had nearly enough water today.

I just feel like I have no energy. I'm sleeping fine but I'm still tired. I'm not getting stuff done around the house that I should. Tonight I had all these plans for stuff to do after Jenna went to bed, and here I sit, screwing around on the computer, not getting any of it done.

I'm just not feeling it lately. And I'm not sure what to do to get it back.

Week 12 weigh in

Down 1.0 pounds, for a total of 28.2 pounds. Slowly creeping up to that first goal of 30 pounds! Maybe this week!

Struggling

These last couple days have been tough. I've just been feeling the pull to eat badly...and that's how it's best described, as if something is pulling me off track. Tonight I caved. Ate fast food. Inhaled it. Total emotional eating 'cause I wasn't even hungry. Don't even know what I'm emotional about, although a little stressed lately. But still...today otherwise was a good day. So I don't know why I fell off the wagon tonight.

But I do know it's going to happen from time to time. And I have to expect it, accept it and move on. The problem I had before was that I would continue to eat badly and emotionally eat for days, weeks, etc. But one downfall is not the end of this journey. Just a speed bump.

And once my lovely talkative daughter goes to sleep (she's now in her crib just talking to her stuffed animals), I will go to bed myself, get a good night's sleep and start again in the morning.

There will be days like this. But they won't get me down, damn it.

Pumpkin cheesecake

I love pumpkin cheesecake. I had it a couple times last year, and it was SO good. So this year, when Jason and I went out to eat a few weeks ago, and I decided I was going to have whatever I wanted, I was definitely going to get pumpkin cheesecake. But Saltgrass didn't have it yet!

So then I was thinking about rewarding myself...when I get to 40 pounds lost, I can have a piece of pumpkin cheesecake. But that's kind of messed up...and probably part of the reason I got here in the first place. I don't need to be rewarding myself with food, ESPECIALLY for losing weight! But I did like the idea of rewarding myself, so here's my plan:

30 pounds lost--I get to buy the latest Tori Spelling book. Mock me if you want, but I have enjoyed her other two books and I have been wanting to buy the third one.

50 pounds lost--I get to spend $25 at Bath and Body Works. I love their stuff but feel badly spending money on myself for lotion. So it will be a good reward.

75 pounds lost--We're going to have a family picture taken. We have never had a professional family picture taken, and even though I will still have a decent amount to lose, I'm hoping I feel so much better about my looks by then that I'll want to have it done. And Jenna's almost 2...we really do need one done.

100 pounds lost--A makeover, fancy dress and date night with my husband. Jason and I don't go out that often, and when we do, it's very casual. I'd love to get a whole new look and have a great night out!

125 pounds lost (my ultimate goal)--A night away, ALONE. I'm thinking I'll go to one of the casino/hotels in Shreveport have some fun playing slot machines. I love to gamble but can't do it too often, so this is a big one. Who knows, if I win, I might just stay 2 nights!

But. Sometime this fall, I WILL have a piece of pumpkin cheesecake. Just once. :)

Week 11 weigh in

This week definitely makes up for last week....this week I lost 4 pounds! I've now lost 27.2 pounds in 11 weeks. Yay! My first reward (will post on that later) will be at 30 pounds, so it's close!

X means I did it!

That picture is my August calendar. (Ignore the smudge in the middle!) I have an extra calendar that I decided to rip the pages out of and write my goals on them, then put it on the fridge. I'll toot my own horn, I did pretty damn good for August...just missed a couple of days. My goals for August were 100 oz of water a day, walk anywhere from 1.5-1.75 miles a day (changed it at the middle of the month) and twice a week, do some light weight training. And on the days I worked, my walking was just to walk the skywalk twice at work. Probably about a mile.

September we're changing it up, just a little bit. My weight training will stay the same, but I'm going to increase my walking to 2 miles a day and my water to 120 oz a day, unless I work, and then it will stay 100 oz a day. Sometimes at work it's tough to get that water down!

Guess next month I'll have to get some eating goals....more veggies/salads, less sweets (yes, I am still eating sweets, just not as much and "healthier" ones, if that makes sense!) and whatever else I can think of.

But for the next couple days, I'll just be proud of myself for August. Love seeing all those x's on the calendar!