Friday, August 20, 2010

Why Am I Doing This?

This week has been a little shaky for me. I've felt like I haven't done the best I could, and I figured that if I posted WHY I'm doing this, then it would remind me. I figure I'll come back to this post and edit it, adding more reasons as they come along. So, in no particular order, (except for #1, which is the main reason I'm doing this), here they are....

1. My health. I want to live to be an old lady. I want to be married for 5o years (I'd be 76). I want to see my daughter grow up, get married and have kids of her own. I want to get off blood pressure medicine. I want to be the exception to my family history of heart disease and high cholesterol. I don't want to physically hurt after a shift at work. I don't want to hobble out of bed in the mornings.

2. I don't want my sweet daughter to call me fat. :(

3. I want to consider myself an athlete again. I'd love to run a 5K and maybe further.

4. When I got married 1o years ago, I had a "personal" bridal shower. Okay, get your mind out of the gutters people...personal clothing. You get the drift. Beautiful things that I haven't been able to wear in years. But I still have it all, and I'd love to be able to wear it again. I'm sure Jason would love it too. :)

5. New clothes. Actually, with every couple sizes I drop, I'm sure I can go through my closets and find clothes that I haven't worn in so long that they will be new to me.

6. I want to not worry about fitting in airplane seats.

7. I want to be able to help people more in my job. I mean, seriously, would you listen to a nurse talking about health if she was 100 pounds overweight?

8. I want to feel comfortable in something besides scrubs.

9. I want to get a family picture taken. It's very sad that we've never had a family picture taken, and the reason I haven't wanted one is that I don't like seeing myself in pictures.

10. I want to like myself again. Well, technically, I like myself, but I hate the way I look. But I do like who I am. Just need to fix the outside to meet up with the inside.

I know there's a TON more reasons why I'm finally doing this, but I'm drawing a blank right now. I'm sure I'll come back and add to it, and I know I'll come back and read it over and over. There are some days, some weeks, I will definitely need the reminders.


  1. I love it! Here's some of the things that have happened since I've lost weight that have inspired me.

    1. I don't weigh more than Dad anymore (at least, I don't think so). That always made me feel like crap.

    2. I can "indulge" and buy ice cream or eat fattening foods in public without feeling like everyone is staring at me, thinking, "That poor girl. No wonder why she's fat."

    3. I can get around and move around much easier. and I actually enjoy using my muscles.

    4. I don't hate looking in the mirror or at pics of myself as much anymore.

    Anyway, I'm hoping that this list will grow as I continue to drop weight. There have been setbacks but rather than freak out about them, I am trying to just take them in stride and know that it's all part of the journey.

  2. Aw mama, good for you for making this for motivation, but you are a fabulous person no matter how you look! xoxo