Life gets in the way

One thing I've realized is that eating healthy/exercising has to be a priority for me, if not THE priority, in order to succeed. And for the past month, it hasn't been. Life has gotten in the way.

A lot of big changes are happening right now, which are very wanted and very exciting, but also stressful. We have lived in Tyler since August 2009, but in the past few months we decided we wanted to move back to the Fort Worth area. Jason has been trying to get a job, with the government, and he still might get one but it's a LONG process. He started applying for a government job back in January. Almost a year ago.

So we had thought we'd wait for him to get a job before moving. Our lease is up here at the end of November, but we thought we'd pay month to month, hoping he'd hear something soon. Then things changed. We went to Fort Worth for our anniversary in October, and we decided to look at a couple of houses. We had planned on just looking to get an idea of what's out there, but we fell in love with one. It's pretty much our dream house.

Then we decided that I could work full time and Jason could stay with Jenna until he heard about a job. I thought I would get a job overnight. Literally, overnight. It's happened to me before. But it didn't this time. It took me about 3 weeks to even get an interview, but I did and got a new job. I start November 15th.

Now I realize 3 weeks is not long at all, but we needed one of us to get a job so we could qualify for a loan on the house. It was a LONG 3 weeks.

The tough thing is now, I'll be in Fort Worth, staying there while I work and then coming back to Tyler on my days off. We're hoping that we can rent the house starting at the end of November, because we probably won't close until mid or late December. Then I wouldn't have to drive back and forth.

So all these things are going through my head...starting a new job, moving, leaving Jenna for days at a time, getting all our financing in order for the house, closing, leaving my current job and still trying to eat healthy and exercise.

I'm hoping once I start my new job, at least that part of life will have settled down some and I can devote more time to being healthy. 'Cause right now, it's hard to find the time. And like I said, I know it needs to be a priority. Just hoping I can make it one sooner rather than later.

Move scale, move!

Well, it's taken me awhile, but I finally feel like I'm getting back on track. This week has been good...walking every day, drinking my water and even (attempting) a weight/toner DVD. But the scale isn't moving much and I'm trying to remind myself that it's okay, it will move eventually. I'm starting to lose my patience with that dang scale so someone remind me getting back on track WILL show on the scale, eventually.

Week 17, off the wagon completely

I've succeeded in falling back into my bad habits completely. Haven't exercised in days. Eating crap, crap and more crap. Not drinking enough water, heck hardly drinking any water at all. It's been about 2 weeks now that I've been resorting to my old habits, but I'm ready for it to STOP. I feel disgusting, sluggish, bloated and fat. My mood is terrible. I'm not sleeping well.

This started with Jenna's birthday weekend. I let myself go a little out of control, but then I didn't reign it in when Jason and I went away for a few days. And while we were away for those few days, we decided to really start trying to move back to the DFW area, which means finding a house and a job. While we wait for Jason to find out about a job, I can start working full time. And we found a house we loved, but now I'm still waiting to hear about a job. And it's SO stressful. And that's why I haven't even tried to be healthy. It's just easier not to.

But I'm tired of it. I'm ready to get back on track. I need to. I want to. These next 6 weeks are still going to be stressful, but I'm hoping and praying it doesn't get the best of me. I was off to a great start. I don't want this to be just another time where I lost some weight, hit a rough patch and then gained it back.

But I'm scared that it's going to be that. I hope I have enough strength to get through it.

Week 16 weigh in: Um, oops.

So I knew this week would be bad, with Jenna's birthday and then going away with Jason. I did well the first part of the week, but when Jason and I went away, all my good plans went to hell. I did weigh myself this morning, but I'm not posting it. I gained quite a bit, but I know most of it is due to the sodium content/water retention of all the eating out we did.

I'll weigh again next Sunday, as usual, and count it no matter what, even if it's still showing a gain. Time to get back on track now.

Week 15 weigh in: weighing early

I have been weighing myself on Sundays, but this week I decided to weigh myself Friday. This weekend is going to be busy with my parents arriving today, Jenna's birthday tomorrow and her party Sunday. I know in those couple days we'll be going out to eat a couple of times, and that's why I wanted to weigh today. I'm not worried about my food choices, because I still plan on eating well, but the sodium amount in restaurant prepared foods is SO high. And I know that will cause me to retain water, so I'm "cheating" and weighing early!

And this week was good! I lost 2.2 pounds, up to 34 pounds total.

This next week is going to be tough...besides the activity this weekend, Jason and I are going away for our anniversary next week. Again, more eating out. But I'm determined not to go crazy and stuff my face, and I'm going to keep exercising every day. Even so, I'm not going to be surprised if I don't lose next week. This week I'm just going to concentrate on making good choices, and I'm not going to rely too much on what the scale says. That's the plan!

Week 14 weigh in

Slow but steady. Lost 1 pound this week for a total of 31.8 pounds so far. I'm kind of surprised it wasn't more, but a loss is a loss. And I keep reminding myself that I need to concentrate on the positive changes I'm making, not just the number on the scale.

Slow and steady.

Non scale victories

I'm trying to put less emphasis on what the scale says and instead, concentrate on the "non scale victories." The stuff that has nothing to do with numbers and still makes me proud and happy! So here's some that I have noticed so far:

My clothes are definitely looser. I had to buy some smaller shorts. When I'm at work, I can tell my scrubs are actually getting looser. I'm not ready to go down a size in those yet but they are definitely bigger.

My engagement ring ALMOST fits again. With all the weight I've gained since I was married, I never got my engagement or wedding ring resized because I didn't want to admit I needed to! My wedding ring doesn't ever come off so it's worn a semipermanent groove on my finger, but I take my engagement ring off so I haven't been able to get it back on.

I went to the store the other day, and instead of thinking what junk I could get to eat, I thought about if they had some Sobe Lifewater 0. I don't know why but I've gotten hooked on that stuff!

But the best non scale victory this week? After getting out of the shower, the towel actually fit around me. Sounds silly but that made me SO happy.